A listless morning on a May Saturday. Will it rain today? What shopping, eating, roaming is on the cards? What IPL tamasha is in store? What else......?
Listless waiting marks my life. Have you thought how much our technology world has added to our listlessness? Waiting for downloads, googling for news,surfing channels, wheeling through iPod tracks, scanning FB, Twitter, waiting for others to like our posts...a marked listlessness, a sure sign of utter boredom desperate for some excitement...not unlike old neighbours prying into the neighbourhood windows hoping to catch some action.
We read in the epics how Rama waited out 14 years in the forest. No real action except some rakshasa battles and an abduction. And some monkey business. That's all. It seems he did not even get to listen to stories from sages like Yudhisthira did. Not to mention that his brothers and wife gave the latter more colourful episodes to recall later.
In Bhagavadgita, Krishna says that the realized one is indifferent to goings-on around him. There is no more that looking outward for happenings. No Dil Mange More. Of course these days the cult symbols of 'asking for more' like Sriman SRK get into all sorts of trouble. In fact all the news around us instruct us constantly that greed and avarice and lust always lead to trouble. But that seems to be no deterrent as we are also equally beset with bombardments of how we should seek more...male face whitening creams, herbal oils that make hair grow on even old baldies, and 'eat all you can' buffets. Buy One and Get One Free culture.
But the corollary to asking for more is waiting. Listless waiting. Not waiting for the rain clouds to bring news of your long lost beloved. Not waiting like Shabari. Not waiting for your loved ones to come back after decades of wandering away. But waiting for things to happen to fulfill your unstated, undeciphered, vague, amorphous, ambiguous, inexplicable, desire for more.
Sorry. Even God can't fathom what I want. It seems to apply to all our listless waiting.
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